It has been hard to know what to write here. I am fortunate enough for my day job to be considered an essential worker who has the option to work from home and is able to do so. My lungs are not the best and I am grateful for the opportunity to not have to subject myself to the outside world for the most part.
I am fortunate that while my state’s governor is a little toothless, my mayor is not. Also that my roommate has taken on the outside errands and is obeying all the precautions etc. So we’re in an okay place.
However, this weekend has been the hardest we’ve had in a long long time, even before the pandemic started. A lot of the family members on both sides were already dealing with some not great medical issues – nothing COVID-19 related yet – but some fairly serious issues all the same. So there has been a lot of tension and waiting for results and news. If you’ve never had to deal with that kind of holding pattern, all I can tell you is that it sucks. It’s the worst really.
Sadly, one of them lost their battle yesterday. The times we are currently living in mean that we weren’t able to be there for their last moments and that there’s not going to be a service. Any celebration of life trips would have to wait until travel is not going to potentially kill a whole lot of people so we don’t even have the different surroundings to distract us. That has been very tough.
So hug the people in your household. Text/Email/Zoom Call your people you love them.