Books/Fandoms That Made Me: Star Wars (Part Two)

The NJO came out and rocked my world, I got my first one from a bag of mixed books from one grandparents (it was Balance Point which I promptly opened up, read the first page and then “HOLD ON WHAT.” I got the entire series for Christmas and birthday after my grandparents realized that no really, that is all I wanted and that I was getting “lost” in bookstores just to actually read those books in the actual store because I was that into the ongoing plotline.

Star Wars (and Nanowrimo) also gave me my best friend (now roommate) because of a write in and an offhand comment and then suddenly there was a person there who loved pilots as much as I did. Who even had met the two authors that had written some of my favorite books ever in the EU. I found out later she actually worked for them over Labor Day weekends at this thing called Dragon*Con.

We’ve been fast and best friends since 2006 and cohabitating since 2011 and there is an entire wall of Star Wars Legends books in chronological order surrounding a smallish pilot shrine. The small collection of current canon novels is also arranged on one side.

I’d been so used to being the only fan in the city I had lived in, that meeting actual humans who geeked as much, if not more than I did, over shared stories and characters was three kinds of a blessing.

It wasn’t all sunshine, Ewoks, and fighter ships. I broke up hardcore with the fandom for a while during the time after the NJO. The Dark Nest trilogy left me cold and then the series after that…there were some deep and abiding characterization issues that led me to just fall out of the fandom for a while.

It hurt too much to go back when you had people taking a character that you loved, that you had grown up with in a literal sense and twist them into something incomprehensible with little to no explanation for how he got from point a to point zed. When just the description of the events unfolding made you so vicerally and incandescently angry.

Because this fandom was home in a way that most of my other fandoms had never been. Because this fandom and the characters and the people were one of the things that had kept me going in some really dark times.

The advent of the last X-Wing book, Mercy Kill (read by me as my roommate drove us to Atlanta so she could cackle at my reactions) was what brought me back. Sitting in the panel room, listening to Aaron Allston talk about it was engaging and there were flickers of that same spark that had consumed so many days during my pre-teen and teen years. I’ll never forget however when someone from the audience stood and stumbled a little bit over their words before getting to the meat of the question. “Is it safe to come home now?”

This was before we had an Episode VII or even really the concept of any of the anthology films and the fervor swept over all of us again at the thought of more new Star Wars movies. After the prequels, I hadn’t thought that I would see more new films in the franchise so soon. Especially given the way that the second trilogy had been scoured and picked apart and judged by everyone with a blog and an opinion.

That question from that audience member resonated with me and quite a few others in that track room. Aaron assured us that yes, it was safe to come back now. That the fandom still had room for us and while we couldn’t change what had happened in the past, that there was space to move past it.

So we came home. And glory of glories, we got more movies and more books and while there were serious upheaval moments (the movie canon becoming separate from the EU/Legends canon was one), we were still a family.

The representation in Rogue One and Episodes VII and VIII were magical. It was like walking into a dream where your favorite fanfic had just become canon. It was the Star Wars we loved with people who actually looked like us. There was more than one badass female character, there were young and old characters, and the storytelling was good.

Every third person was not a white dude and the stark change from the original trilogy was a little more magical because of it. 8pm Thursday night showings became the new midnight showings and the sheer joy of being in a theater with a hundred other excited fans all reacting at the same time to what was on the screen will never not be amazing.

You meet some of the best people at these things, especially in tense moments on screen where your right hand is being clutched by your roommate and your left is being held by the guy next you because the need for physical comfort was so high (Ep VII, you probably know the part).

And then there was the pushback from other fans, who couldn’t quite understand the need for all that diversity. For the additional women on screen or the need for the stories to evolve.

The people who grew up thinking they’d be the Rebellion and instead became the Empire. Unlike the controversies in the fandom before, this one wasn’t much of one. The people buying into that mindset were the vast minority, albeit a very vocal one. The core of Star Wars fandom is still there, glittering like our Space Mom, and eagerly awaiting whatever we get to experience next.

We have so many new stories coming out from a variety of media formats. We have amazing inclusive books and short stories written by so many amazing people, it’s impossible to name them all here.

We have an entire Disney park dedicated to the full immersive experience of being inside the Star Wars Universe.

I can’t wait to see what we’ll get next.

Books/Fandoms That Made Me: Star Wars (Part One)

So I love Star Wars, this is not news for people who know me.

Star Wars was and is a huge part of who I am today. I fell in love with the series when I saw it with my dad at the age of nine. Some of my earliest fanfiction was me in the Star Wars universe, exploring things and having all kinds of adventures. My family, of course, was always Corellian. It seemed to fit them the best (still does).

I learned there was an Expanded Universe when I saw The Crystal Star by Vonda N. McIntyre in the Paperback section of our local KY Kroger. I begged and pleaded for my mom to buy that for me. I was a tiny kid who was already reading on a college level at 9. My parents had an easier time keeping me in sneakers than in books.

It blew my mind. Because here was the after I had been looking for, the what happened next, and this book wasn’t the only one. Luke was a full blown Jedi, Han and Leia were MARRIED. WITH KIDS!! My nine year old mind was over the moon. Here were all the details and the stories that happened after! Scoping through some of the pages, I saw that it wasn’t the only one either.

So I fell into this universe in a way I hadn’t before with any of the other things I loved, unless you count reading as a fandom of its own. Star Wars was really the first IP where I actively became part of the fandom as much as I could.

It was pretty slow at first, that was right around the time that we were moving overseas. However Episode 1 came out and saved my life (I wrote about that over here). That Christmas, I got the score and the novelization from visiting relatives and I fell further down the hole of fandom.

As I got older and had more access to the internet, I found websites like TheForce.Net and fanfiction.com and I started reading everything I could. I couldn’t get enough of it.

I joined a forum specifically geared towards Jedi Girls and through it, I met the first person I fell in love with. We moved again and our closest “neighbors” that worked for the same agency my parents worked for had a kid my age that owned a HUGE chunk of the Legends books that had come out at that time. They went back stateside for a year and I got to babysit the books while they were gone. It was kind of a dream come true.

I got to take my time reading through the Expanded Universe and revelling in all of the words and the adventures and the characters. The good and the bad and the weird (I still am not exactly sure about what the hell even The Black Fleet Crisis was about, it’s been 16 years and “Bzuh” is still my entire reaction to that trilogy).

These were the books that taught me what “canon”, “deuterocanon”, and “apocrypha” actually looked like, where 3-4 years of studying religious doctrine and history couldn’t. How piecing together different campaigns from across several books/trilogies actually functioned and the importance, not just of gaining knowledge, but also sharing it (Wookiepedia and so so so many fansites in the Geocities/Angelfire years) so that others could also nerd the hell out.

I fell in love with pilots to the point of ordering the entire X-Wing series with birthday and Christmas money from Amazon.com and having them shipped to me overseas (the estimated time of arrival without having paid for expedited shipping because I really didn’t want to give Amazon an actual kidney was anywhere from 6 weeks to 4 months, depending on the mail and customs). The books I was babysitting for my friend didn’t have all the X-Wing stories so I had to procure them elseways. This drove me bananas, because my impulse control to read all the things had to contend with the fact that I knew reading them out of order would mean that my brain would hyper-focus on what I’d missed.

Pretty sure that the only people happier than me getting those books were my family members, having to put up with my anxious slightly manic self. They were in 3 packages and I didn’t get them in order. I remember getting books 1,2, and 8 in the same package and agonizing because I wanted to read them in order and waiting until I had all of them was a special kind of torture. It paid off though because the joy of getting to binge read the entire series was so good.

Episode II came out and I saw it three times in the regular Brasilian theaters and then wonder of wonders, it was still in the Imax theaters near my grandparents when we landed stateside for a brief assignment. My dad took me and my sister to a late night Imax showing of it and it was the best thing in the world.

Episode III was the one where I camped out for tickets. Nothing was getting in my way from seeing this. Coming out of the theater from that movie and then pretty much getting back in line for tickets because I needed to see again. There was so much there that my brain needed to unpack and filter through what we already knew of the universe and how it fit into the EU and this opened up so much more of the already vast universe.

Part Two Tomorrow!